I know how it feels to be anxious, especially in the middle of the night. Boom! I wake up with dozens of thoughts swirling around inside my mind. From my to-do list to worries regarding my family and future. I toss and turn and eventually get up. I am praying and talking to God as fast as I can but the anxiety seems to prevail. Sometimes I feel like crying or just stepping outside. At that time my mind is literally a battlefield. One part of my mind remembers what the Bible tells me about being anxious and another part of my mind is spinning out of control. The feelings grow stronger and I start doubting that God really has me. However, I cry out to God and with the Holy Spirit, I have the power to steady my mind on Christ. Isaiah 26:3 says: You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in You. all whose thoughts are fixed on you! As I reflect back on all God has brought me through and all His promises in His Word, often the anxiety feelings subside.
Some say the answer is in taking medicine, and maybe for them the medicine worked perfectly. However, when I was younger I tried medicine for a year, yet that did not solve my problem. On a side note, I had a family member that benefited greatly from using medicine and am not against it at all....it just didn't take it away for me. I always wanted to be instantly healed of anxiety and even prayed for that to happen. Some people may say it's because I don't have enough faith in God. I will tell you though, any faith I do have in God is a gift from Him. He knows me through and through and I have prayed since I was a little girl for anxiety to be taken away. It hasn't completely went away. However, as real as this battle is, I have found hope. There is hope in the Truth of God's Word. For me, God seems to want me to need to totally depend on Him for my healing. It also is a process and not an instant deliverance. God has strengthened me in His Word and even though I still can feel anxious, I don't camp out there like I use to. People that have known me closely since I was a young adult can tell you how much I have grown in this area. God is strengthening me day by day as I draw closer and closer to Him. He has delivered me from so much in my life and I know that anxiety is already defeated but I must renew my mind daily and stay in the scriptures to actually live it out. Philippians 4:6-7 says: Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ. I do want to mention that we can not stop anxiety feelings from coming but we don't have to agree with the feelings and walk it out. A good pastor friend always said, " You can't keep birds from flying over your head, but you can keep them from nesting in your hair!" Fight! Fight! Fight! The Word of God is your sword.
So, if today you are in a dark place and anxiety has a grip on you; don't give up. I want to encourage you to start by crying out to God, just as you are. God is your deliverer.....He may do it instantly. He may do it through a Dr. using medicine. He may do it through a process of getting closer to Him as He has for me. But be sure of this, not only is God the One that can set you free, but the good news is that He wants to set you free! Jesus says in Luke 4:18, "The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, for he has anointed me to bring Good News to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim that captives will be released, that the blind will see, that the oppressed will be set free!"
Praying for you,