Tuesday, May 1, 2018

My Anchor

This life is really hard.  Each day we are faced with situations that test our emotional well-being.   You can turn on the news and before long feel a sad hopelessness looming over your head.   Life is a struggle!  Sometimes I feel like a ship tossed about the sea that without an anchor, I would be quickly lost.  However,  I praise God that Christ is my Anchor.

I became a Christian when I was 22.   Being a Pastor's daughter I had thought I was a true believer when I was younger.  However, I knew something was missing.  I lacked power and desire to walk with Christ.  Years later when I met Chad, there was something about him that I wanted in my life.  He had a calmness and a peace.  At that time I seldom felt peace or calm.  He had a joy just being alive.  At that time I felt restless, bored and always looking for fun.  He had a sense of direction for his life.  At that time I was lost and felt I was floundering from one day to the next.  When I asked him what made him content and peaceful, he said Jesus had made the difference in his life.  It wasn't long until I was desperate before the Lord crying and asking Him why did I not feel that way.  The Lord showed me that I had head knowledge of Him but never a true heart knowledge of Jesus.  I knew alot about Him but never spent time with Him.   In other words, I talked the talk but couldn't walk the walk because Jesus was not the Lord of my life; I was.  As I surrendered my life to Christ,  He filled me with His Spirit, and for the first time in my life I had deep peace and joy. He became my Anchor. Christ made the difference!

Now fast forward 27 years and I am still walking with Christ. He has never stopped loving me or left my side.  He has given me peace in situations that would normally be impossible to walk through. He is my Rock and my Shield and my stability. Have I failed Him?  Absolutely.  However, as it says in 1 John 1:9 if I confess my sins to Him, He is faithful to cleanse me from all unrighteousness. In addition to His forgiveness, He keeps me in the palm of His hand and loves me. (John 10:28-29, Romans 8:28-37)  Saying all of this, there are still days that I am caught off guard by what this life brings about.  Sometimes I find myself struggling to feel anything and am tired and worn.  Does that mean that Christ no longer lives in me?  Does that mean that He doesn't love me anymore?  On the contrary, when I find myself struggling to feel God's presence, I find that I seek Him more.  The first place I start is in examining my heart.  I ask God to reveal any sin that I allow to reign in my heart.  When He shows me things, I agree with Him that I have sinned and I repent.   Secondly, I ask my friends to pray with and for me. This life is much easier with Godly friends by your side.  Lastly, I remind myself of all that God has done in the past on my behalf.   It is in the times that I feel the weakest that I cry out to God the most.  God is not fickle.  He says what He means and He keeps His Word.  If He says "Never will I leave you or forsake you", then He won't leave or forsake us! 

I want to remind you today that no matter how you feel, that God loves you very much; whether you are a Christian or not.  Romans 5:8 says while we are still sinners He loved us and gave His life up for us.  If you don't have a relationship with Him, I assure you that He is inviting you to come to Him and allow Him to be your anchor.  I realize that in this life storms will come.  However, I pray that as you sail life's seas, you will make sure you are anchored in Christ.