Today's blog will not be on my usual schedule. When I announced the blog's schedule this year, I mentioned that there will be times that the Holy Spirit may lead me another direction. I feel this is one of those times!
I want to ask us all a question: What's your one thing? You know, that one thing that always comes up when you are feeling blue or unhappy? For example, "I would be happy if only __________. " Now, there could be a million various answers to this question. You might say if only: I lost weight, I gained weight, I was married, I was single, I was smart, I wasn't so smart, I was tall, I was short, I had money, I didn't have so much money, I was in the ministry, I wasn't in the ministry, etc. There always seems to be a "one" thing; the missing part of the happiness equation.
God is currently taking me on a journey of more emotional healing. I often tell my husband that I feel like a giant onion and God, one layer at a time, is peeling back each layer and bringing truth and healing. Now, I will admit that I don't particularly enjoy this process, however, I do love it when God brings healing and freedom. You see, for years I have had many answers I would insert in the blank above. There would always be "one" thing I felt I was lacking and I would press in for that missing link. However, each time, I would be sadly disappointed that as soon as my "one" thing was received, another "one" thing would pop up. Even as a Christian I would struggle with this. I knew in my head that Jesus was enough but in my heart I struggled. What causes this discontent? Why do we look for "things" to fill a spiritual hole? While I may not know the answer to those questions; I still believe that Jesus is the solution. (My kids say I say this for everything) It's not that He doesn't want me to be whole and content; He's very willing to fill that blank up to overflowing and then some. However, there seems to be a wall up to receiving all that God wants to give me; and the wall is built on my side! Why? Do I think maybe I don't deserve it or can't attain it, or that I missed my chance? Do I believe what I feel or what God's Word says about me?
I want to suggest that if you are in the spot where I have been, always looking for that "one" thing, that God wants to bring healing to you. There IS freedom and joy in Christ. Satan wants us to believe that we have to settle for whatever comes our way, but Jesus said He came so we could have life and have it more abundantly. (John 10:10) When we received Jesus as our Savior, He began to work in our heart, soul, and mind and He will not stop until we are completely whole! Philippians 1:6 says: He that began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. That is great news to me! I am literally a work in progress!
If you are a Christian and you are struggling with contentment and joy, I want to encourage you to get alone with God and His Word and pour out your heart to Him. In addition to that, I want to encourage you to talk with a Christian sister, Pastor, or friend. Be honest about your feelings and let them pray with you and keep praying for you. Recently God has used a Christian book to give me great insight to my heart: So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore. Whatever you do, don't give up hope and believe the lie that you will always be hurting and sad. There IS abundant life in Jesus, even if you can't see it yet.