Friday, May 1, 2015

Playing God

Do you have a problem with control? Maybe you feel like you don't have enough control; or maybe you feel like you must control for things to be okay.   Do you feel like it's up to you to work out things for your loved ones and family?  Do you feel like, if you try hard enough, that you have it in you to "fix" all your problems?  I am the first one to admit that I have had a problem with control for years.  Although I didn't understand it all myself, I had an intense drive to "take care" of everyone I loved.  I personally felt responsible for protecting my family from any harm or failures.  Needless to say, this has been a very heavy burden; a burden I was NEVER meant to carry.  Jesus tells us in Matthew 11:28: Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Only Jesus can give us true rest from the constant drive to be in control.  For me, the driving force behind my need for control was fear; fear for my children, my family, my health, my future, and much more.  If I am living in fear, then I am NOT living in faith and trust.  (For more on that, see Trust Vs. Worry)  The truth is, when I strive to control everyone and everything, I am trying to be "God" in their lives. Wow, that's a sobering thought!  Instead of my loved ones growing closer to God, they were only getting more dependent on me! Ouch!   I am not qualified to know all and to know what is best in every situation.

 During this past year, God is doing a radical work in my heart and life.  For the first time in my life, I am realizing this truth:  I have never really had any control in the first place, I have only been getting in God's way when I thought He needed me to "intervene".  However, as I have been able to give everything over to the Lord and trust Him, I am seeing more results than I have ever seen before.  Now, I am not saying I have this trust thing 100 % down.  On the other hand, I am saying that as I confess my fears to the Lord and trust HIS ways and plans, I am having a lot more peace and freedom.

Is there any area of your life in which you are "playing God"?  Trust me, we were not meant to be everything to everyone.  We WERE meant to be filled up with God's Spirit and let HIM do the ministering and loving through us.  I have a good friend named Sandi that has already gone home to be with the Lord.  Sandi would always tell me:  Melaina, if you are "stressed out" and "worn out", then you are doing things in your own power, not the Lord's.  Wow!  Isn't that the truth?  My prayer and encouragement for you, is to examine your heart and see if maybe you are clinging to a false sense of control.  If you are, no condemnation; however, don't stay there!  Give all your worries to the Lord and follow HIS leading!  You will be amazed at the mountains HE can move as you trust Him.