Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Letting Go-Post 2

  2012 has definitely been the year for "letting go".  In March, we moved 9 hours away from all of our family...including our older 2 sons.  I can't describe how hard that move was!  We had to let go of all that was familiar to us and take hold of what the Lord asked us to do.  Not long after we settled into our new home, my Dad began to rapidly go down hill physically.  He had planned to come see us and meet our new church family but hasnt been able to yet. He now is bedfast and is on hospice.  There are so many things that changed this year that I could write all night and not cover it all.  The bottom line is....well, this has been our toughest year yet.  But wait....I have good news..God still has been faithful.  He hasn't let us go or turned His head.  As we grew weak, God gave us the strength to press on.  As the months went on, I began to realize that I was right in the middle of a major "refining" chapter of my life!  Life, as I once knew it, was no more. I admit that I went through several phases, much like those of a grief process.  I spent days and weeks mourning the death of many dreams we had for our family.  My eyes were opened, as never before to the fact that I had such an tight grip on everything and everyone that was important to me.  Step by step, the Lord loosened my "fingers" that clung to MY life and My family.  I am seeing life in a way that I have never seen it before. Many things these last months have seemed confusing and unclear, but ONE thing keeps getting clearer and clearer....God is God and I am not.  We have shared our "walk of faith" with many of you since 2008, but this year the Lord took things to a new level.  Trusting the Lord for provision was challenging at times..but He provided, sometimes in ways that still blow our minds!  But this year, the Lord pressed me way out of my comfort zone and still is!  I have had many questions and not all have been answered. I am sure of this one thing, God is STILL in control and He STILL has plans for us.  Over the next few days I hope to share some of this year's journey with you.Through it all, I am learning more and more about the Lord's character personally and I wouldn't trade that for anything

Philipians 3:10-11 in the Amplified Bible says it all.....
10 [For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly], and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection [[a]which it exerts over believers], and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed [in spirit into His likeness even] to His death, [in the hope]

11 That if possible I may attain to the [[b]spiritual and moral] resurrection [that lifts me] out from among the dead [even while in the body].